my ears hurt

i dont have health insurance, which is something i am regretting right now. this flu, sinus infection, ear infection thing is kicking my butt. i'm sick of lying in bed watching lame tv. we have a billion movie channels, and of course there is never anything good on, or if it is good, i've seen it 30 times already since usually these movies cycle monthly.
 maybe i've lost a few more lbs in the last week of not really eating much. for those of you who have seen me in the last few months, weight is not a concern of mine at the time.there's not much food in the house anyway, and i'm running out of food stamps. i have $25 till the 8th, and only the meat market up the street is close to walk to. theres not a huge selection of stuff, just meat, a few veggies, canned stuff and none of it is very cheap. i don't feel like taking anytime to cook anything other than ramen either.
 i need a beer. that sounds good. a nice yummy newcastle. mmm... salivating.
okay, the thought of food is making me hungry. sick of the same damn chicken ramen ive been eating all week. we have some canned soup maybe, but it only sounds good until i take about 4 bites. that grainy chicken gets to me. it's substance though, so if i get to the starving point i'll go for it. i suppose other than drinking lots of water, i should get a source of vitamins in me. my mom has a bunch of emergen-c, i think i'll start with that. if you've never tried it, give it a shot. i find the pink lemonade and the orange flavors to be my favorites.
 anyone really into valentines day? i've never been. seems that only one relationship i was in during that stupid holiday, the guy actually got me flowers & a card or something. the others- i make an effort with a little stuffed animal or something- with nothing in return. i give up. i'm not really with anyone right now, just kinda sorta still seeing the ex on occasion, which i agree is stupid. but- oh well. so long as i keep myself from staying attatched, i should be okay. but, i tend to get and stay attatched, so maybe i should think twice when he calls to come over next time. (yeah right, i'm thinking to myself.)
 alright, i guess it's emergen-c time. and i think i'm gonna raid the pantry, fridge, freezer... and probably come out with nothing. eh. i could walk up to the store and get something, but that doesnt sound like fun. i have 2 hours before they close so i should decide quickly if i want to watch idol. missing a half hour of bad singing wont hurt me though. see y'all on the flipside.

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